How do you solve a problem like Maria?

There is a very definite chapter change happening in our lives at the moment. 

And I'm not sure I like it. 

Actually, I'm really mad about it. Angry. Livid. Raging.

But more than that I'm sad. So immensely sad.

For those that don't know, Chris's job, of which he loves and does a bloody amazing job at, has been made redundant. His last day was supposed to be Friday just gone, but when he took a call from a group where the proverbial had just hit the fan, he didn't hesitate to say he would help.  And, as much as it messed with the plan for my week, I didn't say no when he said he wanted us all to come. 

 This is the first place Chris visited this time last year. And our whole family came on that trip too.  We were once again welcomed into the fold, just like any member who turns up to be helpful the week of Christmas. And whilst Chris went to work, and the relief fell over these peoples face as he weaved his magic, I wrapped Christmas presents, guillotined invites for their movie night, made coffee and swept the floor. Our kids did amazingly well and had way too much technology time.  But hey, they also ran on the beach and got soaked to the skin - or running around naked if you are J - and had an amazing evening as well.  

So, as this chapter falls to a close, though I am still trying to work out if God is trying to tell me that this chapter is not yet closed or I'm just living in denial, I know one thing. God gave Chris this job for a very specific purpose. One was that he would have the flexibility our family has needed for the last 12 months. Another has been to surround him with amazing Christian people who genuinely love him and what he does.  They have nurtured him and encouraged him, whilst also letting him spread his wings. And another has been to have us covered in prayer. Many a time has something thats been going on in our family has gone onto their prayer list. 

Now, while we wait to see what the next chapter holds, it's part grief over a job that was so much more than a job, and part anticipation of what next year has in store for us.  It's exhaustion over a year that has not been the easiest.  It's gratitude over all the things that have given us highs. It's acknowledging the learnings from the lows. 

So, if you are a pray-er, hell, even if you aren't, God hears you anyway, please pray for our family.  We would love to know what we are doing next year. What Chris's work looks like.  

All I know, is that the quote from one of my favourite movies is true - when the Lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.